Unless the LORD builds the house...

1 Unless the LORD builds the house, those who build it labor in vain. Unless the LORD watches over

the city, the watchman stays awake in vain. 

2 It is in vain that you rise up early and go late to rest, eating the bread of anxious toil; for he gives to his beloved sleep. 

3 Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb a reward. 

4 Like arrows in the hand of a warrior are the children of one's youth. 

5 Blessed is the man who fills his quiver with them! He shall not be put to shame when he speaks with his enemies in the gate.  (Psalm 127:1-5)

The first night home from the hospital was pretty terrifying. In the hospital, nurses come in the room every few hours and they're never more than a phone call away from coming to help you in between. You don't even think to check baby in the night because all the medical resources in the world are on the other side of your door. Then, you come home to your house and everything once familiar is now scary. Is that bassinet really safe? Is the temperature too cold? Too hot? How will we know if she stops breathing in the middle of the night?

Fortunately for us, we have the most amazing friend who do things like drive to your house at 10:30 that first night to let you borrow their "is baby still breathing?" monitor. Also, more so, we prayed till we couldn't think of more words. Because monitors really only bring so much reassurance. We ingested massive amounts of scripture, lots of psalms. 

Psalm 127, though familiar, became dear in a fresh way. We could stay up all night worrying over her, but would it do any good? Unless the LORD watches over a city, its watchmen stay awake in vain. 

The next morning, on the way to that first pediatric appointment, Casey and I reflected on some ways God had cared for us on that first scary night. We remembered psalm 127 again, and for the first time, it made absolute perfect sense to me that the second half of the  psalm is about children being a heritage from the LORD. I honestly think that psalm is for new parents! It's like, hey, stop worrying about this little girl as if you love her more than the LORD. Don't you remember he's the one Who gave her to you in the first place? A heritage from the LORD. 

And, remember this God is the same God of psalm 121, who never sleeps. He watches over all three of you while you all sleep. He guards your life. He guards hers. And so it goes, we keep meeting God in the scary hard places, and it's not the way we'd choose, but it is good. Thank you Father. 

Desperate

Desperate. That is the word of the week. 

Desperate for some sleep, yes. For a hot shower. For a massage maybe?

But sooo much more, desperate for God. Desperate for all of who Jesus is to be lived out in me. Desperate for the Holy Spirit's power and love and joy and peace to rule me. 

Desperate for knowledge I don't have. For energy I don't have. For love I don't have. For the fight I don't have in me. So desperate. 

But He keeps saying, "Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven." (Matthew 5)

Thank God. Because I am poor. It is so clear now. 

And He keeps making the kingdom show up. He keeps giving Grace. His people keep bringing food and texting at the right moment and giving advice and praying and offering living words from His word. He is sustaining. I've been Elijah out hiding in the wilderness and He keeps sending ravens to feed me.

"Open wide your mouth and I will fill it." (Psalm 81:10)

It hurts. My pride. My heart. My eyes, from crying. But He's doing surgery on my heart. And I'm trying to quit fighting Him and fight against the lies instead. The ones that say he isn't listening, or doesn't care, or is getting tired of my neediness. 

I think maybe that's really his favorite thing for me to say. "I need you. I know you are good, and I want you. Please give me you."

Even typing it, I'm afraid. That it's gonna run out -his Grace, his patience. So I'm praying this for me:

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope." (Romans 15:13)

Please, pray it for me, too. I'm desperate for you to keep walking with me. 

41 weeks (from the hospital bed) - from last Friday 12/9

How far along? 41 weeks (as of Friday)!
How big is the peanut? A jackfruit??? Basically, baby size. 

Total weight gain/loss? Enough. 

Maternity clothes? 😂
Sleep? 4:15 a.m. Is evidently some kind of special time because I keep waking up then. 
Best moment this week? Hearing that baby is looking good, BUT it's time for her to come out. 

Symptoms? Yup. 

Food cravings? Food!
Food aversions? Anything that might lead to indigestion or other adverse side effects. 
Gender? Y'all know. 
Labor signs? Yup. 
Belly button in or out? Ouuut. 
What I miss? Food. 
What I'm looking forward to? She's really coming soon. Oh my! Also, food haha. 
Milestones? Hello! Labor. 
Bump? 

Happy due date!

How far along? 40 weeks (as of Friday)!
How big is the peanut? A pumpkin, or a watermelon. 

Total weight gain/loss? Enough for a small human to be nice and comfy 😂. 

Maternity clothes? Should read: one pair of yoga pants, and a handful of shirts long enough to look semi-appropriate with said yoga pants. 
Sleep? Not as long as I'd like, but still happening, so I'm thankful. It's hard to nap because my mind is going-going. 
Best moment this week? Really enjoyed our appointment this week. Casey came, our midwife was great, and we are getting so close. 

Symptoms? Exhaustion. 

Food cravings? I don't know! Whatever doesn't lead to indigestion. I've eaten a lot of chicken noodle soup this week. 
Food aversions? See above: foods that lead to indigestion. 
Gender? Y'all know. 
Labor signs? No...
Belly button in or out? Ouuut. 
What I miss? Food. 
What I'm looking forward to? This Thursday we'll either being seeing baby via ultrasound, or in our arms. Either way, we get to see baby again for first time since July's anatomy ultrasound!!
Milestones? Hello! Due date!
Bump? 

39 weeks and counting...

How far along? 39 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? A mini watermelon, or a small pumpkin. 

Total weight gain/loss? Healthy gain. 

Maternity clothes? Yup. 
Sleep? Not as long as I'd like, but I also got in a couple naps this week, so that was nice!
Best moment this week? Strangers are excited to talk with me about baby. In a gas station yesterday a lady told me I looked adorable and that we're gonna have so much fun being parents. 👊🏻👨👩👧

Symptoms? Still in extreme nesting mode. I dusted. I despise dusting. 😂

Food cravings? Well I'm not sure we can accurately assess this with Thanksgiving happening, but I did eat my slice of pumpkin pie AND dad's (for breakfast). 
Food aversions? Same old...Grease.
Gender? Yes, the baby has one. 🤓
Labor signs? No. 
Belly button in or out? Ouuut. 
What I miss? I think just easy mobility. 
What I'm looking forward to? Been looking more forward to experiencing this with God and Casey. It's gonna be tough, but it's gonna be an adventure we won't forget. 
Milestones? Car seat installed ✔ New smoke alarm installed ✔ Bags packed ✔ 
Bump? 

38 weeks! The final countdown...

How far along? 38 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? A leek,o r a winter melon. Where do they come up with this stuff!?

Total weight gain/loss? Healthy gain. 

Maternity clothes? I just don't wanna talk about it anymore. 😁
Sleep? Tricky, but enjoyable. 
Best moment this week? When mom called to see if she could come help 27th a few more things around the house. ❤

Symptoms? Lots of moving around in there (her). Extreme nesting mode (me). Stressed (him - probably mostly due to me - sorry buddy). Also, this 😂:

Food cravings? I had 3 scones one day. Also, a serious craving for key lime pie. 
Food aversions? Grease. 
Gender? Well let's just say there's a lot of pink in that nursery, so... Hope they were right. 
Labor signs? Not yet. 
Belly button in or out? Ouuut. 
What I miss? Thinking my bed was comfortable. 
What I'm looking forward to? Getting car seat installed and bags packed. Also, the other side of labor 😬😱
Milestones? Strangers are officially concerned I'm going to "pop at any minute". 😩. We took our preparing for labor class ✔ 
Bump? 

37 weeks, eek!

How far along? 37 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? Swiss chard (i know, what?), Or a large cantaloupe. 

Total weight gain/loss? Healthy gain. 

Maternity clothes? What did people do before yoga pants, really?
Sleep? Intermittent, but enjoyed 😁
Best moment this week? Grandma Joanne and Aunt Krysi helping me set up the nursery last Saturday + Grandma Pam helping me clean this house this weekend! 

Symptoms? Yup. 
Food cravings? Harris Teeter had Breyers ice cream b2g3 free. Need I say more?
Food aversions? Still true: I still eagerly await the day I can eat a bojangles kids Supremes meal with fries, mountain dew, and honey mustard. 
Gender? Das HAS to know by now it's a girl :)
Labor signs? Nope. But those Braxton hicks though...
Belly button in or out? Ouuut. 
What I miss? Normal clothes. Getting in and out of bed easily. 
What I'm looking forward to? Preparing For Labor class this Monday 😮
Milestones? We're under a month from due date!
Bump? 

36 Weeks (9 months!?)

How far along? 36 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? Romaine lettuce, or a canary melon, whatever the heck that is 😂
Total weight gain/loss? Definitely gaining, but beyond that, don't know. 

Maternity clothes? I bought some more pants this week, and a couple new shirts. #lifechanging 
Sleep? So many weird dreams. Leopards and cheerleaders and doors that won't lock. What?
Best moment this week? Did I mention the new pants?

Symptoms? It's weird to experience pain in places you didn't even think about before.
Food cravings? Me and ice cream 🍦 are still bff's. I'd like to recommend Breyer extra creamy vanilla. So good. 
Food aversions? I still eagerly await the day I can eat a bojangles kids Supremes meal with fries, mountain dew, and honey mustard. 
Gender? Das HAS to know by now it's a girl :)
Labor signs? Nope. But those Braxton hicks though...
Belly button in or out? Ouuut. 
What I miss? T-shirts.  
What I'm looking forward to? Hospital tour Tuesday. 
Milestones? 9 months!
Bump? 

35 Weeks!

How far along? 35 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? A honeydew 🍈, or a pineapple 😍
Total weight gain/loss? Happy to say I don't even know.

Maternity clothes? Pajamas? 
Sleep? So many weird dreams. 
Best moment this week? Pep talk from the doctor, hearing her heartbeat, and realizing we're now in the every week appointment stretch 😮🙏🏻🎉
Symptoms? Discomfort. Everywhere. 
Food cravings? Me and ice cream 🍦 are still bff's. 
Food aversions? Grease. 
Gender? Don't tell dad, but it's a girl. (He seriously has to already know though). 
Labor signs? Nope. 
Belly button in or out? Ouuut. 
What I miss? Just easy mobility I guess. 
What I'm looking forward to? Seeing her out here. ❤ 
Milestones? Got the "when to call the doctor" list and phone #s. 
Bump? 

34 Weeks - a melon

How far along? 34 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? Cantaloupe, or a honeydew 🍈 😍
Total weight gain/loss? Happy to say I don't even know. 

Maternity clothes? So necessary. 
Sleep? Well, it's Saturday and I woke up before 6 😭
Best moment this week? Sleeping through the night in the middle of a cold. That was a serious answer to prayer y'all. 
Symptoms? Achiness. 
Food cravings? All the carbs. 
Food aversions? Same old, same old. 
Gender? Don't tell dad, but it's a girl. (Although not sure hope he doesn't know by now). 
Labor signs? No, not yet!
Belly button in or out? Ouuut. 
What I miss? Just easy mobility I guess. 
What I'm looking forward to? Shower with my church fam today ❤ 
Milestones? Mmm... Nothing I can think of. 
Bump? I woke up like this.

33 weeks. It's a pineapple!

How far along? 33 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? Pineapple, or a head of lettuce.
Total weight gain/loss? Still steadily gaining :)

Maternity clothes? So thankful to be able to go through all the cold weather clothes that friends are letting me borrow. What a blessing. 
Sleep? Interrupted, but still, lovely. 
Best moment this week? Mountains with Love for a "babymoon". #thankful
Symptoms? Achiness. 
Food cravings? All the bread. Sweet, savory, sweet again. Milk, whole please. Ice cream. 
Food aversions? Whatever gave me the worst heartburn ever Tuesday night. 
Gender? Don't tell dad, but it's a girl. 
Labor signs? No, not yet, but I'm thankful that at this point labor wouldn't be the end of the world. Can't believe we're that far along. 
Belly button in or out? Out. 
What I miss? It is hard to change positions. Like sitting to standing. Laying down to anything else is like a workout. :)
What I'm looking forward to? Life with her out here!
Milestones? Doctor says head is definitely down. Getting ready... 
Bump? 

32 Weeks!

How far along? 32 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? A jicama! 😂 Or, a half gallon of milk. How healthy. 
Total weight gain/loss? Fewer clothing options. 

Maternity clothes? See above 😀
Sleep? Definitely waking up more. 
Best moment this week? Super squirmy baby. But shy (or stubborn), I guess, because daddy doesn't get to feel it very often. 
Symptoms? How have I ever worn flats?
Food cravings? Ice cream is my BFF. 
Food aversions? I think the fruit phase has passed. 
Gender? Don't tell (grand) dad, but it's a girl. 
Labor signs? No, not yet! And preferably not till after our preparing for labor class!
Belly button in or out? Out. 
What I miss? Comfortable pants. And shirts. Yup. 
What I'm looking forward to? Mountain trip with C. "Babymoon", if you will. 
Milestones? First shower tomorrow yay. 
Bump? 

31 weeks- coconut or butternut squash?

How far along? 31 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? Butternut squash (how fall like), or coconut. 
Total weight gain/loss? No loss.

Maternity clothes? Yup.
Sleep? Necessary. 
Best moment this week? Making room in baby's room by finally having a yard sale and getting rid of some stuff. Then getting a pedicure afterwards when my feet were aching. 
Symptoms? My feet, my back, all achy. 
Food cravings? Currently, chocolate cupcakes with that classic store bought icing. 
Food aversions? Too much grease still. 
Gender? Don't tell dad, but it's a girl. 
Labor signs? No, not yet!
Belly button in or out? Out. 
What I miss? Comfortable pants. And shirts. 
What I'm looking forward to? Seeing her face. More imminently, mountains soon!
Milestones? It's a month of baby showers...
Bump? 

Hello little cabbage! (30 weeks)

How far along? 30 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? We have a "cabbage" patch baby! 
Total weight gain/loss? Healthy.

Maternity clothes? Between borrowing from friends and mom and dad and Danni buying me a few things, I've spent almost nothing. #blessed
Sleep? Definitely waking up at least one or two times a night, but generally getting decent sleep. #thankful
Best moment this week? Getting kicked hard enough to say "ow!?"a couple times. 
Symptoms? My feet though. Killing me. But, amazing hubby rubbed them, twice. He's a good one y'all. 
Food cravings? Sweet tooth is back with a vengeance. 
Food aversions? Fewer than the first 29 weeks, but still greasy = unappetizing. 
Gender? Pretty much everyone in the world knows now but grandpa Wase. Good luck there. 
Labor signs? No, thank goodness!
Belly button in or out? Out. 
What I miss? Comfortable pants. 
What I'm looking forward to? Doctor appointment this week and then we'll finally be doing every other week. A month is too long to wait to hear that heartbeat. 
Milestones? I mean, we only have two months to go. It's getting real. 
Bump? 

29 weeks. Butternut squash or large water bottle? Take your pick.

How far along? 29 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? Casey's app says butternut squash (awww), mine says extra large bottle of water 😂. 
Total weight gain/loss? Healthy gain. I'm really thankful God has helped me not worry about this too much. Just try to eat healthy and help baby grow. 
Maternity clothes? The struggle is real. Just when things are fitting, I think I'm outgrowing them. #ineedsomeyogapants #realbad
Sleep? Just tossing and turning. 
Best moment this week? Is it lame to say paying off student loan? But it's something we've prayed for and longed for, especially pre baby's arrival, and God provided! 
Symptoms? Sitting in any position is pretty uncomfortable. Makes meetings and that football game I went to with dad... Different experiences 😀
Food cravings? Mmm... Ice cream still. Ice cold water. Fruit. Haven't changed much. 
Food aversions? Fatty, greasy, fried stuff. Same same. 
Gender? It's getting harder to not slip with grandpa Wase. Eek. 11 more weeks 😬
Labor signs? No, thank goodness!
Belly button in or out? Out. Totally weird. 
What I miss? Sleeping on my back. And Bojangles Supremes and fries. 😪
What I'm looking forward to? Seeing our families enjoying little butternut squash. Oh and #babymoon ! (Good excuse for a mountain weekend). 
Milestones? Final monthly appointment next week, and then we're down to every other week. 
Bump? Getting ready to go to baby's first state game!

28 weeks with our eggplant-cucumber

How far along? 28 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? Casey's app says eggplant, mine says cucumber. 
Total weight gain/loss? Healthy gain 😁
Maternity clothes? It's not maternity, but I did buy two pretty fall color cardigans and I feel better about life. 
Sleep? The interruptions have begun again. 
Best moment this week? Passing my glucose test. Hallelujah. 
Symptoms? Well, turns out I have iron deficiency anemia, oh boy. So I get to take an iron supplement twice a day. That explains Some fatigue and fast heartbeat :) Praying that the iron doesn't make me sick like it did in the prenatal vitamin first trimester. We'll see!
Food cravings? Pumpkin spice... Ooh wait, that's just normal. Ice cold water still. This week, citrus. I dunno. 
Food aversions? Fatty, greasy, fried stuff. 
Gender? Grandma Pam finally knows! What a relief! Grandpa Marty still wants to be surprised in December, so keep it quiet with him. His lack of Facebook presence should help. 
Labor signs? No, thank goodness!
Belly button in or out? Neither?
What I miss? Sleeping on my back. 
What I'm looking forward to? Shower fun. 
Milestones? Depending on your source, we're now in the 3rd trimester 😮
Bump? 

27 weeks: the little cauliflower/eggplant

How far along? 27 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? Casey's app said cauliflower, mine said eggplant. Mmm... That sounds good. 
Total weight gain/loss? Healthy gain 😁
Maternity clothes? Target is amazing. They're the only ones who make maternity pants that have elastic built into the sides versus those terrible elastic things that are supposed to cover your whole stomach and suffocate you in the process 😂
Sleep? Body pillow is legit. 
Best moment this week? Wal-Mart baby clothes clearance section. The cuteness! 
Symptoms? I think that whole going back to not feeling great in the third trimester it's real. Haven't felt great last couple days. Third trimester is upon us. 
Food cravings? I'm undecided as yet whether it's providential our terrible that Wendy's is running their $0.50 frosty promo right now. Cold creamy things and fresh tasting things are what I want right. Also ICE COLD water. 
Food aversions? Still not smart to eat fried/greasy food. One day, bojs, one day.  
Gender? Still a secret for Grandma and Grandpa Wase, so shhh...
Labor signs? No, thank goodness!
Belly button in or out? Another week and we might be out. Weird. 
What I miss? Sleeping on my back and not aching 😊
What I'm looking forward to? Seeing that face in person! Getting glucose test over this week. 
Milestones? Think we're settled on a name. But we're not telling. Sorry. 
Bump? 

26 Weeks for Baby A

How far along? 26 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? The size of a scallion (length wise I'm guessing), or a chuck roast 😂
Total weight gain/loss? Gain. We'll leave it there.
Maternity clothes? Between 2 friends' loans and a couple shopping trips I can now happily report I have clothes that fit :)
Sleep? Been using the body pillow Kelly loaned me. It's interesting. I think I like it. 
Best moment this week?  Casey and I picked out a few outfits for baby. First things we've specifically bought for this little one. 
Symptoms? Um... Nothing I feel like sharing? Just... Go read a pregnancy book. They're fairly accurate :)
Food cravings? Grapes! Red grapes. And ice water. 
Food aversions? Sadly, chick-fil-a is back on the banned list :(
Gender? Still a secret for Grandma and Grandpa Wase, so shhh...
Labor signs? No, thank goodness!
Belly button in or out? We're still in, barely. Didn't you want to picture my belly button? Ew.
What I miss? The beach. Oh wait, you meant in regards to pregnancy? Well...More clothing options. That's about it. 
What I'm looking forward to? Next appointment and hearing that heartbeat again. Kicks every day. Seeing Casey take care of baby. 
Milestones? Nothing this week I don't think. 
Bump? 

25 Week Update: Cauliflower/Rutabaga

How far along? 25 weeks (as of Friday)
How big is the peanut? The size of a cauliflower (or Rutabaga if that's your thing)
Total weight gain/loss? Gain. We'll leave it there.
Maternity clothes? Yes! (when I packed for the beach 2 weekends ago, normal clothes fit. By midweek at the beach, nope!)
Sleep? I'm getting it, and I'm thankful (even if it doesn't ease the back aches)
Best moment this week?  Hearing Lil Cauliflower's heartbeat at the checkup (going strong in the 140's!) and hearing that we're right on track with measurement.
Symptoms? Um...belly, check. Peeing, check. Tired, check. Tears, check. Anything else?
Food cravings? Mostly just fresh things---fresh veggies, fresh fruit, fresh ICE CREAM bahaha.
Food aversions? Greasy food (I miss you Bojangle's, and I promise to make it up to you one day!!!)
Gender? Still a secret for Grandma and Grandpa Wase, so shhh...
Labor signs? No, thank goodness!
Belly button in or out? We're still in, barely. Didn't you want to picture my belly button? Ew.
What I miss? My favorite jeans. And Bojangle's. And Mt. Dew. I'm done crying now.
What I'm looking forward to? Seeing Lil Cauliflower!!! Also, being done with the glucose test (next apppointment, bleh.)
Milestones? Mmm...we're in month 6. We know gender. I've officially "outgrown" my normal clothes. What else to say?
Bump? Yup! The last week or two is the first time that random people have said something to me about being pregnant, so I know it's for real noticeable now...not just doughnut belly anymore :)

"Oh, we're halfway there, oh, living on a prayer!"

Yesterday marked our official halfway point in our pregnancy. Naturally, we celebrated with a slice of carrot cake topped with a "1/2" candle that I found in Target's clearance section (reason #34567 why Target is the best store ever). Then we tried really hard to stand still with our hands on the belly to see if we could feel anything. Nothing yet. Patience (we get to see Baby A again on Monday eeek!!!)...

Yesterday was also a big day for our adoption. Our agency's policy is that if we haven't matched with a birthmom/baby by the time we're 5 months pregnant, they put us on hold until our bio-baby is 6 months old. We got official word at 2:54 p.m. yesterday that no match has been made thus far. So, we know that we'll be on hold until at least June of next year.

There's so many emotions going on with all that. I know, you say, "You're pregnant! Of course there's emotions!" Ok, you're right. There are. But I do think there's layers of emotions that we wouldn't otherwise have if we weren't simultaneously pregnant AND pursuing adoption. A little relief that we won't have 2 newborns at the same time. A little disappointment that we won't meet our adopted child for at least another year. A tinge of doubt that maybe we messed something up in the process. A flicker of hope because we know God really is the One in control. "All the feelings," as they say.

When we found out on April 1st (Yes, April Fool's Day. See, God is funny!) that we were pregnant after several years of not getting pregnant, and deciding to go ahead and pursue adoption (something we'd always wanted to do, but had planned to do post-bio-babies), we were...surprised. A little confused. We were 2 weeks out from our final home visit and adoption approval..."Why Now God?" was a real question---not because we weren't happy. We were! Just...we don't get the inside scoop on what God's doing, and we were...confused.

For about a week, we wondered and prayed and asked advice about whether to even continue with our last home study appointment, and felt like God was leading us to go ahead and continue the process. We did, we got approved, and we only needed to make a profile book about our family to show prospective birthmoms. Boy, this last step seemed like it took forever!!! (Kinda 'cause it did...) But in June, we finally finished it with about a month to spare before we'd be put on hold by our agency.

All during that book-making process, we were, again, wondering and praying and asking advice about whether to even continue the process. Is it crazy to set yourself up to have 2 newborns at the same time??? We actually got to ask a couple who experienced that exact thing, and they said "Yes! It IS crazy, but it's worth it..." Honestly, during the process, I don't know that we were ever SURE one way or the other what God wanted for us, BUT we knew that we trusted Him to make the right decision. So, we took a step of faith, we made our book, we put ourselves out there, we set ourselves up for possible craziness. And, as you see, He said "Not right now."

All along I've told people that God knows the timing of when our adopted child will be born. That hasn't changed. All that's changed is that I THOUGHT I knew when it was going to happen, and I was wrong. I FEEL like I know now...I feel like maybe we're halfway through the adoption, too. Like maybe it'll be another year and a half before we met our next little one. But, honestly, I just don't know. I kind of hate when people turn things into cliches like "I don't know what the future holds, but I trust the One who holds the future." But, it really is true. Pretty much all of this has been a walk of faith. And it seems God isn't done teaching us about that yet. We're going out like Abraham to that place God is calling us to---we just don't know exactly where it is or when we're gonna get there. Til then, we trust Him.

In this whole process, the message of the song "Oceans" has been a recurring theme. It seems every time we were at a crossroads emotionally or financially, this song would come up. So, I thought I'd post it here:

Excited to meet Baby A in December, and excited to meet Baby A #2 whenever the Lord decides...
C&C